Happy New Year's Eve!

Yep, that's me! All ready for my big New Year's Eve party (well, it's just Rob, Timothy and Marissa...) and my kiss from Rob! Yay! I haven't started drinking yet, but that will be occurring within the coming hours... I can't wait for 2012 to get here!

I hope you're all having a lovely time with friends and family and are ready for the ball drop! WOOOO!!!!!!!!

+Rei Bathory+

New games, new goals, and new pictures...

Yes, this is what I wore out today... I've really been feeling a more goth look as of late, which I think is a good thing! Rob has been telling me that I should show more boob in my pictures, so there you go, for those who care... XD These photos were taken in my creative room, if you're wondering what some of the stuff in the background is... I hope you guys like the new photos! ^^

I bought a couple of games shortly after getting up this morning... The weather sucked today, so I couldn't get to Littleton to go shopping, so I bought two games from Gamestop's website... I got Dead Rising 2: Off the Record and King of Fighters XIII... I got KoF XII for Christmas, but it is just so bare bones and I need more out of a fighter. Apparently, the sequel is much more fleshed out... I can't wait until they come in! Hopefully they'll ship this afternoon/evening and I'll have them Monday or Tuesday...

And then there was therapy this morning... I have a new goal to work towards a few times a week. I have to go outside and take a short walk and clear my head. This came about from me talking to her about my life feeling routine and this was her suggestion... I also talked about some larger goals, such as traveling, getting a new computer, and possibly taking online college courses... She said that I should start putting money aside every month and working towards these as well... One suggestion was to start a jar and put cash in every time I take one of these walks... We'll see, I guess...

Well, that's all for now... I must be getting back to sewing and I should probably take some of this makeup off... eh heh... Have a lovely evening and a nice start to the holiday weekend! <3 <3 <3 *

+Rei Bathory+

Too tired...

To bother with anything today, really... I haven't worked on my mom's dress, haven't played any music, nothing... I've just been laying around watching TV and keeping Timothy busy when need be. It's not like I'm sleep deprived or anything, I've been getting plenty, I just have no energy today... *Sigh*

I suppose the only good in this is that it gives me something to talk about in therapy tomorrow... It's actually kind of a good thing that Rob's brother and family lives right up the street, so Timothy doesn't have to sit in a waiting room by himself. They've kindly offered to take him for an hour. In exchange, Marissa will be sleeping over sometime this weekend... That should be fun... eh heh...

I think I'm going to buy a couple of video games tomorrow... Originally, I was going to buy Skyrim, but I don't want it anymore... Oblivion just sucked so much life out of me, I can't let a game dominate my life like that again... I don't know exactly what I want yet, but I have a Gamestop gift card that I plan on using so that I don't have to pay full price for everything that I buy...

Well, that's about all for now... I hope you're all having a nice evening and a lovely Friday for you all! <3 <3 <3 *

+Rei Bathory+

Just made it...

Yes, I got my drugs today! I was a little nervous in venturing out at first because the weather was a little rough... What's worse is that Timothy is on school vacation and I had to take him, too, so I didn't want both of us to die because I'm a fucking addict... eh heh... But it turned out to be fine.

It was all slushy out in the parking lot and it was sleeting outside but once we got on the road it wasn't too bad... As we neared Plymouth, the rain/sleet/whatever started to let up and it only took me about 5 minutes in the store, so we were right back on the way home in no time. It started to snow heavily within about 30 minutes of us getting home, so we timed it absolutely perfectly!

I'm continuing to make progress on my mom's dress for her birthday and I'm starting to get used to the Stratocaster so I can play all of my songs again! Yay! I really have nothing going for the rest of the week other than to maybe go out and spend some gift cards later this week after I get paid... I'll let you know if I make any cool purchases!

Well, that's all for now. I hope all of you are having a nice evening and a lovely Thursday for all of you! <3 <3 <3 *

+Rei Bathory+

A messy day ahead...

Well, actually it's going to start this evening... There's a huge storm moving in that's currently bringing us mixed precipitation and is going to change over to heavy rain later tonight... Then it is going to go away for awhile and bring snow to our region of New Hampshire sometime tomorrow... *Sigh* I'm so sick of fucking weather...

We had our white Christmas and it was a thing of beauty, but it was also hell when we had to go over to Rob's brother's place and back... God forbid the state workers do anything on Christmas day... These stupid fucking rednecks up here probably think it's some sort of sin to work on Jesus' birthday... eh heh...

I had to go to Pain Care and pick up my script today only to have to venture out into whatever weather we're having tomorrow to get the fucking pills... They only had one person working at Pain Care today, the receptionist, Lisa... I felt bad for her, having to sit in a doctor's office doing nothing all day by herself... Hell, my script was the only one in the little box... :\ Oh well...

If you do not hear from me tomorrow, I was fatally wounded in a car crash because Frank is too much of a pigfucker to give me my pills a day early... eh heh... I hope all of you are having a lovely evening and a nice Wednesday for you all! <3 <3 <3 *

+Rei Bathory+

The day after...

We've all had a nice relaxing day after Christmas today. Timothy even slept in so Rob and I didn't have to get up early! Yay! When we finally did all get up, I made us breakfast while Timothy rummaged for his remaining toys that were under the tree...

He got so much yesterday... His favorite was the new Kirby game for Wii that Rob and I got him, though. He literally jumped up and down and then ran half way up the stairs when he opened it! XD I couldn't imagine Christmas without him... It's just not the same without kids, they make it so magical! <3

I've just been taking it easy for most of the day today... I'm still feeling a bit depressed that I didn't get that dress done for my mom in time... :\ I will finish it soon and she can have it for her birthday which isn't too far away! I've watched the Tranenherz DVD twice and I just can't get enough of it... They did such a beautiful job making it! The setlist is perfect, too! Then there is my new guitar which I am having a bit of trouble adjusting to... I'm so used to the Warlock's design that I'm having a bit of trouble with the Stratocaster... :\ It is a beautiful piece of machinery, though! I love it to death and I can't believe my parents spent that much on one thing for me! O.O;

Ah, now the new year approaches and I can't wait to see what it brings... Things are looking up for now and I hope they stay that way! I hope all of you are enjoying your gifts and are having a nice evening! A lovely Tuesday for you all! <3 <3 <3 *

+Rei Bathory+

Merry Christmas!!!!!!!!!

I just wanted to take some time out of my holiday to come on here and wish everyone a Merry Christmas! I hope that you're all having a wonderful holiday full of cheer and merriment with you and your families! <3 I have been having a wonderful time with mine! I got a new electric guitar! Yay! We just got back from Rob's brother's house and exchanged gifts with them and had Christmas dinner! It's been such a lovely day... <3 I'm off to watch the Tranenherz Live DVD now! Bye! Merry Christmas! <3 <3 <3 *

+Rei Bathory+

Christmas Eve pictures!

So yeah, I got a little drunk last night, hence the sunglasses... eh heh... It's the holidays and I feel as though celebration is in order! ;) I know that I usually wear a nice Christmas dress or something, maybe tomorrow, but it's all black today... I hope you're all having a lovely Christmas Eve day and a special night for all of you! And have a great Christmas, everyone! <3 <3 <3 *

+Rei Bathory+

All ready for Xmas...

Yep, there's pretty much nothing left to do! All gifts are wrapped, all decorations put up, and I've prepared several dishes for Christmas dinner! Yay! I'm so excited to be spending Christmas here with Rob and Timothy! I know it won't be the huge Christmas that I'm used to while being at home, but it's nice to be with my own family on that special day! ^^

I hope all of you are going to have an awesome Christmas with you and yours, too! I don't really have much to blog about tonight so I will be going now... Have a lovely evening and a nice Christmas Eve day! <3 <3 <3 *

+Rei Bathory+

My soda supplier...

I'm addicted to a certain soda... Yeah, go figure, there's something else that I'm addicted to... XD That certain soda is Mountain Dew Game Fuel. It only comes out on a limited basis every other year or so. However, it is nearly impossible to find in New Hampshire.

Before I left Massachusetts in 2009, it had just come out again and I drank it like it was going out of style... I would go to the convenience store and buy 5 or 6 bottles at a time. Then when I got up here, I couldn't find it anywhere! I was very saddened by this... Now it is out again and luckily, I've found a store up here that sells it!

I actually just got back from buying more. It's sold at a little Mobil gas station and they're having a deal on it! I bought the last 5 that they had and hopefully they'll have more in stock for me to buy when I run out again! XD If you've never tried Game Fuel, I would highly recommend it! There are two flavors out that I know of this time around. The traditional Citrus Cherry (my favorite) and a lemon lime one that I don't really care for... They had a blue one out last time around, but I'm not sure if it's still available...

Well, wasn't this an interesting post?! XD Shows you how much is going on in my world at the moment... I hope you all have been having a nice day and a nice evening and a great Friday for you all! <3 <3 <3 *

+Rei Bathory+

The family stays home...

New Hampshire as a whole could only be defined as "a mess" this morning. We had a wintry mix overnight and just about every road in the state was a sheet of ice... Rob will drive in just about anything, but he refused to go anywhere this morning. You'd also think that a school bus would be safe to get Timothy out, but the road's were THAT bad. So we had a nice family day today! ^^

Rob and I wrapped Christmas presents while Timothy played and I took too much Promethazine again, so I passed out for awhile! XD We also watched the news and saw all the hell that was going on with the roads today... Highways closed due to accidents, school buses slipping off of roads, our town's police chief even ended up on top of a car that slid into him! O.O;

Luckily the temps are on the rise and the ice should melt pretty soon... Tomorrow is supposed to be much better and thankfully I can get out and get my Percocet's! We wouldn't want me not to have them, would we?! XD Friday is our best chance for snow and even though it's supposed to be more intense further south of us, we should still have our white Christmas! Yay!

Well, that's all for tonight... I hope all of you have a lovely evening and a nice Thursday for everyone! <3 <3 <3 *

+Rei Bathory+

Serious cough killers...

Went back to the doctor's today and I made out like a fucking bandit! My doctor knew that he'd fucked up by giving me just Bactrim and an inhaler last time, so he was not going to do me wrong yet again. I got the Advair inhaler to go along with the inhaler that I already have, an antibiotic that I can't pronounce and Promethazine cough syrup! Woohoo!!!!

Promethazine is one of the strongest and most sought after cough medications on the planet... It makes you high as fuck and I actually just woke up from a Promethazine coma... eh heh... It's too bad that I actually need it because it has a very high street value! :\

Then I had to go to Pain Care after the doctor's office to pick up my script from Frank... Once again, I had to take a piss test so apparently my "graduation" was for one day only... I asked them if I could please fill the prescription today so I didn't have to drive back to Plymouth tomorrow and they wouldn't fucking do it! Goddamn Frank... *Sigh*

Well, that's all for me for tonight... I hope all of you are having a nice evening and a wonderful Wednesday for you! <3 <3 <3 *

+Rei Bathory+

Back home with bruised ribs...

Yep, Timothy and I made it home all right this afternoon... Luckily we got on the road before rush hour and the drive was smooth sailing for most of the way. Of course, I had to stop and pee and Timothy was hungry so I got him a donut... The only downside to the drive home was my coughing fits...

This bronchitis is seriously still fucking with me! I've been coughing so much and so hard that I think I've bruised my ribs... It hurts so goddamn bad to cough and I can't do anything about it! Even the Percocet only takes a slight edge off! I don't know what to do about this... I could go to the emergency room, but the most they're going to do is wrap me up, which I can do myself...

I just hope that this all goes away in time for Christmas... I really don't want to be hacking up a lung on Christmas day... Speaking of Christmas, there is a chance that we're going to be having a nice white Christmas this year! Yay! You might think that in the northeast we have them all the time, but it really is a rare occurrence...

Well, I hope you're all having a nice day/evening and a lovely Tuesday for all! <3 <3 <3 *

+Rei Bathory+

Damn men...

Yes, why do I put up with these creatures? They are useful for so little and are distracted so easily... Let's take today for example. Rather than spend more time with his female family members, Michael took to the living room TV with my father to watch the Patriots game... eh heh...

And no, Rob is not innocent either... Instead of spending time with me and our son, he took off with his friends to go and watch the same stupid game! BAH! What is so fucking great about this football game?! Every goddamn Sunday for months on end time stops for this game... I do not get it...

Today was Timothy and mom day for me, I guess... We didn't do a whole lot, but it was time well spent, I think! Better than watching football! We walked down the street and looked at the different setups in people's yards as I popped pain killers because my back was killing me... eh heh...

Tomorrow it is back to New Hampshire for Timothy and I... Rob will be spending the entire day in Mass because he has to work and then he will be back in New Hampshire sometime tomorrow evening.

Well, that is all for now... I hope you all had a lovely weekend and a nice start to the week for you all! <3 <3 <3 *

+Rei Bathory+

Back to my home away from home... Or is it the other way around?

Whatever the case may be, I am back at my parents house for the weekend! Ah, the memories... A suicide attempt here, a fight with a family member there, these are the things that one should never forget! XD As per the usual, my folks have the house decorated to the nines for the holidays.

Rob is at his moms place with Timothy and I won't see them again until tomorrow... It feels nice just being here with my parents. Michael will be coming to visit with us all in the morning! Yay! I will have Timothy tomorrow while Rob goes and hangs out with some of his friends down here... Unfortunately, I do not have any of those left... Probably better that way, though.

It feels so good to be using a fully functioning computer, too! <3 I've been snooping around the tree and there are no computer sized boxes with my name on them... :\ Maybe it's a laptop or something! XD I do know that there is a lot of stuff under there that DOES have my name on it and I can't wait to open it all up! ^^

Well, I'm off to go help mommy dearest with dinner and then we're going to watch a movie... I hope you're all having a nice evening and a lovely Sunday for you all! <3 <3 <3 *

+Rei Bathory+

Back in Therapy...

After a weeks delay, I finally got to see my new therapist today! I was a bit skeptical after talking to her over the phone, but she's much better to talk to in person... As with all first time therapy appointments, it's a feeling out process and getting to know one another, so I didn't really get into anything deep... I do like her and I think it might actually work out this time! Yay!

I had to go to Plymouth after my appointment because I was waiting for a couple of packages to still come in... There are pluses to ordering things online, but it's not great if you have deadlines to meet... (Birthdays, Christmas, etc.) I did get the last of the packages I was waiting for, though, so it's all good! I've got just about everything wrapped that I need to bring to Mass with me, however, I was making my mom a dress that I simply could not get done in time... *Sigh* I was really counting on this being her "big" gift from me and it just didn't happen... I feel so rotten about it...

Speaking of feeling rotten, I still don't feel well because of the bronchitis... I've got this nasty cough still going and I'm still finding myself short of breath on occasion... Not to mention, my sinuses are all fucked up and it's just not the time for me to be traveling... But, I must, so I will.

Well, I hope you're all having a nice day/evening and I will be around this weekend when I get the chance! Until then, have a lovely weekend, all of you! <3 <3 <3 *

+Rei Bathory+

All decorated!

Yep, we got our Christmas tree situation settled and it's all decorated and ready for the big day! ^^ The house has ornaments and other festive thingamajigs all over it and we are ready for Christmas! w00t! I'm so excited for Christmas this year! Rob, Timothy and I are going down to Massachusetts this weekend to visit our families and do Christmas there. I don't think I'll get to open any of my gifts until Christmas morning, though... :\

We've decided to do this because we didn't want to be away from home this year. We think that it's only fair to Timothy that he gets to open his presents from Santa in his own house... Speaking of Santa, I've had to explain to him more than once that he really does exist because all of these older fuckheads that he goes to school with are telling him otherwise... That's how it got ruined for me... I was at lunch one day when I was 8 or 9 and some kid told me that there was no Santa... I think Timothy deserves at least a couple more years of believing in him...

Not much else going on with me, though... I got that blood pressure pill situation straightened out with the pharmacy, so I can go out and pick them up tomorrow! Well, I hope you're all having a lovely evening and a nice Friday for you all! <3 <3 <3 *

+Rei Bathory+

Oh Christmas tree, Oh Christmas tree...

Yes, we ended up getting our tree today! Yay! Rob, Timothy and I went out this afternoon and ran some errands and then picked up our tree on the way home! It's not the biggest tree in the world, but it is very full and it smells great! ^^ It was quite a pain getting it to go in the stand, though... *Sigh*

The stem was not cut low enough so we had to remove a bunch of branches from the bottom to get it in there... I'm still deciding as to whether or not I like it where it's at and whether or not it looks crooked... I'm so anal about things like this! XD And this tree seems to have come with insects... They're nothing bad, just these little black gnat things that I keep seeing here and there... I suppose that's what you get when you get a $15 tree that's been sitting outside for god knows how long... eh heh...

I'm having another issue with pills, too... This time it is not Percocet, but one of my blood pressure pills. I called the pharmacy and used the automated system to try and refill them, but it told me that I had no refills left... The bottle says that I have three refills, but apparently their computer system is still screwed up. I have enough pills to get me through the next four days, but now I have to call my doctor's office and get them to send over a new fucking script... I swear, I have no luck whatsoever with pills of any kind... *Sigh*

Well, that's all for me. I have to go and make dinner, wrap some Christmas presents, and get the tree decorations out... I probably won't start decorating until Rob gets home from work tomorrow... I hope you all have a wonderful evening and a nice Thursday for everyone! <3 <3 <3 *

+Rei Bathory+

Graduation revoked?!

Remember how last week I told you that I'd graduated from taking piss tests every time that I go and have my pills counted? Well, apparently that is not the case anymore because they tested me again today... I know that I'll pass because Rob bought those 30's a few days ago and I've been snacking on those, so there's no problem, but I just feel lied to... :\

I am still all rundown and shitty feeling from this bronchitis and I really should have stayed home today... If they'd stop making me go for these damn counts every week, I could have. I ran a few errands as well and that didn't help either. I got more Christmas presents at the post office and I had to pick up a few things at Walmart, too. And of course, fuck forbid they let me fill my script today... I have to go and get it tomorrow... *Sigh*

We're most likely going out tomorrow evening to get our Christmas tree! I can't wait! Even though I feel shitty, that scent and the thought of decorating with Rob and Timothy makes me feel like a kid again! <3 I looked at a few trees today, but they were way overpriced and too big for our living room anyway... Hopefully we'll be able to find something suitable!

Well, I must be going now... I have to start dinner and then hopefully I can lay back down and spend the rest of the night watching TV... Have a lovely evening and a nice Wednesday, all of you! <3 <3 <3 *

+Rei Bathory+

Diagnosis: Bronchitis...

Yep, I went to the doctor's today to find out what the hell is the matter with me... (If there's not enough already... eh heh...) Before I even got to see the doctor, I had to have more blood drawn via order from my psychiatrist... They took four tubes out of me to check my depakote levels and some other things...

I'm getting really fed up with going to this doctor's office as they're becoming habitually late for appointments. My appointment was scheduled for 11:30 and it wasn't until almost noon that I got to see the doctor! The appointment didn't really last long, either. I described my symptoms and he checked me out and then we talked prescriptions...

I'm now on Bactrum and an inhaler... I have to take the antibiotic for 10 days and I can use the inhaler as needed. Hopefully I'll be able to knock this shit out of my system with these two medications as I hardly slept last night... I must have woken up at least 10 times in choking fits from this damn Bronchitis... *Sigh*

Well, I hope all of you are more on the healthy side and are having a wonderful day! Have a great evening and a nice Tuesday for all! <3 <3 <3 *

+Rei Bathory+

Sickness can bring me down, but it can't stop a great photo (or two)...

What do you think? Is that not totally kick ass gothyness or what?! I feel like such shit that I needed a pick-me-up and this totally did it for me! It is Sunday, bloody Sunday... hehehe... I haven't taken a really goth looking picture for this blog in quite some time, so I hope you guys like them! And I hope that my mom buys me a lot of makeup for Christmas, because these photos took a lot of it to get this look down right... eh heh...

Well, not much else going on... I'm watching a Law and Order SVU marathon on USA and I think I might go out later in my chosen garb... Have a lovely rest of your Sunday and a great start to the week! <3 <3 <3 *

+Rei Bathory+

Pneumonia?!

I think I might have it... Remember how I was sick for a few days last week? Well, the congestion in my head and lungs never fully went away and now I feel like shit again... I woke up this morning coughing my fucking brains out and I could barely catch my breath... Going up the stairs feels like running a marathon because I run out of breath... eh heh...

I plan on calling my doctor's office on Monday to see if I can get in to see someone... I've had pneumonia and bronchitis too many times in my life to fuck around with this. The only thing that's working for me at the present time is this Icy Hot vapor rub stuff that I put on my chest... It relieves the symptoms for a short time, but it doesn't fully get the job done.

We had some company this morning and afternoon with Jason coming over for a visit. He's grown so much since the last time he was here! He's eating baby food now, he can grasp things for long periods of time, and he is much more vocal and less whiny... I loved having him and I was sad to see him go! His parents and Marissa went out to get their Christmas tree, so that's why we had him... We should have our tree by early next week sometime! <3

Well, I hope you're all having a nice evening and a lovely Sunday for you all! <3 <3 <3 *

+Rei Bathory+

Damn these drugs!

My afternoon medications (which include the new 1 MG Klonopin) and a Percocet have done it to me again! I was fine for a short while after taking them, but after I got back in the house with Timothy, it was back to sleep for me... eh heh... I don't know what this is all about! It's kind of scary, actually...

The worst part of it was after Rob got home and he and Timothy wanted their cheeseburgers that I'd promised to cook for them last night... I was so fucking out of it near the stove and I honestly don't know how I managed to cook and be half asleep at the same time... XD They were pleased with what I'd made them, though, so I guess I can still do things while drugged. That's at least one plus!

Before all of this, I managed to get out this morning and early afternoon to do some Christmas shopping! I bought little Jason a stuffed sock monkey which I probably could have made myself, but it was only 5 dollars and it would have cost me more than that in materials... I also got my mom a Snoopy doll that plays Christmas music... It was one of those Hallmark deals where you buy three cards and you get it at a discounted price... I like those because it kills two birds with one stone. You get your Christmas cards that need to be sent out and a nice gift for a little over $20...

Well, that's all for now... I'm off to go and clean my greasy frying pan and then it's back to those homemade Xmas gifts... I've got so much left to do and I have so little time... *Sigh* Have a lovely evening and a great start to the weekend! <3 <3 <3 *

+Rei Bathory+

Oh, how I love my Rob!

He bought a shitload of Percocet 30's today and I'm flying high right now! YAY! ^^; I also talked to my psychiatrist this afternoon about my anxiety problems with these pill counts, and she helped me out! I don't know if she's actually going to talk to Frank, but she did increase my Klonopin to 1 MG instead of just the .5 like I had before!

You know, I've been more effected by drugs lately... It seems like my body's tolerance to them has really weakened... I took 3 Klonopin's this afternoon (1.5 MG) and it knocked me the fuck out! I don't know what's going on with this shit! I hate being put on my ass by drugs unless I intend to do just that!

I felt so bad for poor Timothy... I put his TV shows on for him and gave him a bunch of food and drinks, but he just wanted to talk to me... So every 20 minutes or so he'd be like "Mommy, mommy wake up!" and I'd sit up and talk to him and fall back to sleep shortly thereafter... eh heh... I'm so up for mother of the year this year! ;) He did handle it well, though, and I'm proud of him. He knows what to do in an emergency and it wasn't too too long before Rob got home, so...

Well, I'm off to go and play Wii with my baby and then it'll be bedtime for him. Then it's off to sew and probably listen to a bunch of music... Have a lovely evening and a nice Friday, all of you! <3 <3 <3

+Rei Bathory+

BLOOD - SPLEEN ~Despair~ (2006)

Another upload that is owed to Adrasteia, here is the BLOOD mini-album that I received in the mail yesterday! SPLEEN ~Despair~ was the first release in BLOOD's LES FLEURS DU MAL concept series. I actually have a correction to make from yesterday's description of it. The words in the booklet aren't the lyrics in French, they're actually the original poems for which the songs on this release are based! They're in French, as is everything else on the CD casing... (Including the copyright information... eh heh...)

I love everything about this release. This is arguably some of BLOOD's best work in their history! Some of you may recognize these songs from the LES FLEURS DU MAL album that I uploaded awhile back, but there are differences between these tracks and their full album counterparts. The biggest difference lies in LES LITANIES DE SATAN as it's more of a metal track than the "industrial version" that was featured on the album.

I wish I could share the photos from the booklet as they are incredibly beautiful! They feature the band members in a snowy European graveyard and I think the imagery compliments the music well! Whatever the case, if you don't have this yet, I urge you to get it now! ^^

BLOOD - SPLEEN ~Despair~

Tracklist:

01. SPLEEN
02. LE REVENANT
03. DANSE MACABRE
04. LES LITANIES DE SATAN
05. L'IRREPARABLE

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Blutengel - Nachtbringer (2011)

All of you who download this from me can thank Adrasteia for this upload... She is the one who requested it and you know that I cannot say no to my darling... ^^ Chris Pohl has completely stunned me with this release. Why? Because this is Blutengel's second album in under a year. First we had Tranenherz in February and now this late in the year...

This is definitely not a rush job either. The quality of these tracks is as good as anything Blutengel has ever done and I think that you'll all enjoy what's offered on this release. There are 8 new songs, 3 demo tracks from 2009 and a live version of the Blutengel classic - Black Roses. The latter makes me cry every time that I hear it because it is just so beautifully done! It also happens to be the 10th anniversary of the release of the song, so...

I hope that if you're a seasoned Blutengel fan or a newbie, you'll grab this up! There is something for everyone here and you will most certainly not be disappointed! Enjoy!


Blutengel - Nachtbringer

Tracklist:

01. Nachtbringer
02. Out of Control
03. Time (there's nothing more)
04. Anders sein
05. Wir sind die Nacht
06. Another World
07. Voices
08. Am Ziel
09. Like a shadow (demo 2009)
10. Color of the night (demo 2009)
11. Still standing (demo 2009)
12. Black Roses (live 2011)

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Starting to decorate, thanks to Percocet...

Yep, I got my pills today! Yay! I've spent much of today in the house decorating for Christmas! I've got just about all of my decorations out on display... The only thing that's really left to do is to go out and buy a Christmas tree and decorate that, too! I've gone a bit overboard with the pills, though... eh heh...

I've taken like 7 of them already and I'm not even supposed to start them until tomorrow... However, Rob is planning on buying some within the next couple of days because I've been sharing with him, too. That way I can be pain free and have enough pills for next week's count! ;)

I also received my second CD Baby package today! I placed an order for 3 items, but BLOOD's "SPLEEN ~Despair~" mini-album had to ship from a separate warehouse, so it took an extra day. It was worth it, though! I'm tired of hearing how Kiwamu and BLOOD treat their fans like shit... This mini-album came with a bonus promotional disc for VENGEANCE for BLOOD LIMITED EDITION and the booklet is fucking packed with photos! Not to mention, all of the song lyrics in the booklet are done in French because this concept was based on LES FLEURS DU MAL, so BLOOD's French fans got a treat! It also includes a pamphlet which houses the English and Japanese lyrics for the songs... Yeah, they're fucking awful, huh? eh heh...

Well, that's about all for this evening... If anyone would like SPLEEN ~Despair~ uploaded, please let me know... I hope you're all having a nice evening and a wonderful Thursday for you all! <3 <3 <3 *

+Rei Bathory+

Croix Allcine - Hanani Shizumu Musougetsu (2000)

I got it to rip! This CD is a piece of history in a lot of ways... This was Kiwamu's first band as well as the first CD to be released from his "Cure" label which is now Darkest Labyrinth and Starwave Records. As you all should know by now, I am a huge Kiwamu fan and once I saw this album available for purchase, I had to have it.

Croix Allcine is probably best defined as a Gothic Rock/Visual Kei band. Their sound is somewhat reminiscent to old school MALICE MIZER as well as other VK bands from the early VK boom period. There is nothing grand here, it is fairly simple stuff. But it is very pretty, in my opinion. The band was made up of Ceria (Vocals), Kiwamu (Guitar), and Synfd (Vocals & Bass). It's pretty weird that Kiwamu never had a drummer in any of his bands until the 4th incarnation of BLOOD... eh heh...

I hope you'll all give this little piece of history a listen! Even if you're not a huge Kiwamu fan, I think you'll enjoy what is offered here!

Croix Allcine - Hanani Shizumu Musougetsu

Tracklist:

01. Retrace
02. Meteor
03. Any colors of dream
04. Hanani Shizumu Musougetsu (instrumental)

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HimemaniK - Ruler (2011)

My darlings, I am in complete fucking awe of what I've just experienced... Never have I seen a band go from such one extreme to another in a period of two years. I am, of course, talking about HimemaniK's new mini-album - Ruler. If you think that this is just Wanna Be A Figurine with a new vocalist, you're dead wrong... Manik and Ayame Minazuki have refined this band to a fucking T and have given me new hope for the Japanese electronic scene!

Let's face facts, Himemiya Mio sounded like a 12 year old Jpop singer, it's just true. I loved her voice, but I had to be in the mood for it. Ayame's voice is so much more grown up and dynamic and she is so incredibly beautiful physically and vocally! Manik has grown, too! No longer just making upbeat party songs, this mini is quite different, to be sure!

Musically, this is so much more ethereal and mellow than Wanna Be A Figurine... I was just swaying to the music and the vocals! I will say it again and again; Darkest Labyrinth is the BEST industrial label on the fucking planet! They have such talent and variety and this just proves my point even more! I really hope that people will give this a chance. Whether you heard Wanna Be A Figurine or you didn't, forget about it. This is great electronic music that just cannot, CANNOT be missed! I'm going to shut up now and go listen again...


HimemaniK - Ruler

Tracklist:

01. ~Intro~
02. BLOOD
03. Rinne
04. Fictitious
05. Jinrui Shuen no Tawamure
06. Ureta Mitsu no Aji
07. Ito

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Yay I got some stuff!

Yep, I had some packages at the post office today! ^^ I got my HimemaniK CD from Darkest Labyrinth and as always, they sent me plenty of flyers to hang up on my creative room wall along with the CD! They include the flyer that I posted here the other day as well as another one for BLOOD with some new information on it! They're going to release a CD entitled "CHAIN -FALL into YOU-" sometime in the near future! <3 I don't know if it will be a remake of the third period track entitled "CHAIN" or if it's an album or what, but it's nice to know that they're working on something new! ^^

I also received Croix Allcine and VENGEANCE for BLOOD LIVE IN MEXICO DVD from CD Baby as well! Croix Allcine is very cool! It's pressed on one of those little 8 CM CD's that may or may not be able to be ripped in my CD drive... It should fit, but I've never ripped one of those on this computer... Hmm... I haven't listened to or watched any of this yet, so it may have to wait until later until I upload something... Unfortunately, I cannot rip the DVD so you will have to seek that elsewhere... eh heh...

I also went to Pain Care today and got my new script... I really have to talk to Frank about these constant trips down there because he's killing my fucking car... If it's not bad enough that I have to drive down there once a week for a new script, they make it so that I have to come back again the next day so that I can fill the fucking thing! It's like 40 miles each way... :\ There was some good that came out of going to Pain Care, though... I don't have to submit to weekly pee tests anymore! Apparently since I've passed every one that they've given me so far, I don't have to do them every single time now... Yay! <3

Well, I'm off to go and make some spaghetti and meatballs for dinner... Hopefully I'll have some time to listen to my new CD's tonight and get at least one of them up for you this evening! Until then, have a great evening and a nice Wednesday! <3 <3 <3 *

+Rei Bathory+

I'm on my way down, I'd like to take you with me...

Depression rules the day today... I can't shake myself out of this funk and it resulted in some serious cutting... *Sigh* I went to the post office to find only packages for Rob today, I'm sorry that I have no music to share with you yet... I really hope that when I go to Plymouth tomorrow to get my pills counted, there is something for me.

I feel like there is an endless spiral going on in my head, a downward one, that is... It seems as the hours pass by, I fall deeper into this depression... The cutting didn't even fucking help! I used to get relief from it at least, but not so much the past few times...

To top it off, Rob has been working overtime to help give us all a nice Christmas and I'm stuck here with Timothy... That's something that I shouldn't mind, but how can I care for a six-year-old in this type of mindset?! I'm doing my best, of course, but it's just really hard. How the fuck do you tell a kid his age that you mutilate your body to feel better and that it doesn't work... The answer: you don't... Just wear long-sleeves and pretend like everything is fine... This probably sounds like a fucking ramble by now... eh heh... I'm sorry... I hope you're all having a better day than I am...

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On the mend...

This sickness is finally loosening its grip on me... I feel less congested and my body is not hurting as much. However, this seems to be the time of day when the symptoms really flare up... As I type this, my nose is really bothering me and my cough is acting up again... *Sigh* Oh well, I feel better on the whole.

This has been a pretty uneventful weekend for me... It's actually pretty nice without all of them around here as I talked about earlier this week. I've been doing a lot of online shopping for both Rob and I with regards to Xmas presents... I have to go to the mailbox tomorrow as I should already have some packages awaiting at the post office...

Speaking of which, I just checked my EMS tracking number and the new HimemaniK CD just arrived in New York City about 2 hours ago! It should be here in tomorrow's mail! Once I have listened to it a few times, I will post it up for everyone to download! ^^

Well, not much else going on right now... I hope you're all having a nice Sunday evening and a wonderful start to the week for you all! <3 <3 <3 *

+Rei Bathory+

New music is on the way!

Yes, I have not forgotten about my music uploads... I just haven't really been feeling anything worth uploading. That is about to change. As we speak, I have three CD's and a DVD on the way... The first is HimemaniK's new mini-album "Ruler." I know that was a popular download when I put up "Wanna Be A Figurine" last year... I also have a very rare CD in Croix Allcine (Kiwamu's very first band) coming and BLOOD's "SPLEEN ~Despair~" mini-album from 2006... So there will be new uploads by next week... I was going to put up the new Blutengel "Nachtbringer" album, but I asked if anyone wanted it and got no replies... So... Well, that is all, have a lovely evening! <3 <3 <3 *

+Rei Bathory+

HOLY CRAP! HOLY CRAP! *JIZZ*

There are three things that stick out on this flyer... First of all, is BLOOD, of course... They are doing another live show. Second is the fact that VELVET EDEN is going to be performing at the same show! *Dies* And third is that "BLOOD (Kanji) DVD" message at the bottom... Are they doing a DVD of this show?! Fuck I hope so... And I hope this means that VELVET EDEN will be the newest edition to the Darkest Labyrinth/Starwave Records family! One can only hope! So much speculation and I must know what this all means! If there is a new DVD coming out, I will have it... Yes. That is all, still sick and not feeling even slightly better... Have a lovely day, all of you! <3 <3 <3 *

+Rei Bathory+

Feeling worse...

Haven't done shit today, nope... I think I have the flu or something and I can't do anything but sleep and watch TV. Well, I did go and get Timothy off the bus, but all I had to do was throw a sweatshirt on and get in my car... Still, that's a lot when you're all run down...

All sewing and other art projects are on hold until I feel better... I don't have much going right now anyhow, but still... *Sigh* I hope all of you are having better days than I am and a nice weekend for all of you! <3 <3 <3 ACHOO *

+Rei Bathory+

Attempted manipulation and sickness...

What is attempted manipulation, you ask? Well, I called my psychiatrist's office this morning to try and get her to talk to Frank. First of all, I don't even know if this can be considered manipulation, because this is a real problem... Anywho, I wanted her to talk to Frank about these fucking pill counts. I wanted her to know how much anxiety I go through every week worrying about how many pills I have... You guys don't know the half of it...

I do all of this nonsensical math in my head about how many I've taken and stuff like that. I cause myself more grief than these fucking shit pills are worth, but I do it because I'm addicted... eh heh... I stress over this so much that I actually DO lose sleep over it... It has got to stop... But, alas, she never called me back... eh heh...

Then there is the fact that I feel like absolute shit today... I woke up this morning because I was so fucking congested... I have a horrible cough and my body is just hurting like crazy! I've also been experiencing dizzy spells and other things, ugh, I need to get off this fucking computer...

Have a great Friday, all of you! <3 <3 <3 *

+Rei Bathory+